Jealous... a necessary evil.

I have given this a lot of thought...

I have never been a jealous person. I have actually been yelled at by past boyfriends for NOT being jealous ENOUGH! But here I am... feeling jealous.

I have no real reason to feel jealous right now. There is no immediate threat to my relationship. There is no reason to feel the feelings I have. Am I crazy? I keep thinking to myself... I am crazy. I am thinking of situations that COULD potentially happen, and making myself upset.

Is it wrong to be jealous or possessive of the man I will spend the rest of my life with? Is it wrong to want to physically hurt someone who threatens my relationship? Reflecting on this by myself is difficult.

Maybe it is a confidence issue. Maybe I get worried that he is going to realize how amazing he is and feel like he deserves something better. Maybe I just need to relax. I feel justified in my thoughts... but that is because I have no angel on my shoulder.