Jealous... a necessary evil.

I have given this a lot of thought...

I have never been a jealous person. I have actually been yelled at by past boyfriends for NOT being jealous ENOUGH! But here I am... feeling jealous.

I have no real reason to feel jealous right now. There is no immediate threat to my relationship. There is no reason to feel the feelings I have. Am I crazy? I keep thinking to myself... I am crazy. I am thinking of situations that COULD potentially happen, and making myself upset.

Is it wrong to be jealous or possessive of the man I will spend the rest of my life with? Is it wrong to want to physically hurt someone who threatens my relationship? Reflecting on this by myself is difficult.

Maybe it is a confidence issue. Maybe I get worried that he is going to realize how amazing he is and feel like he deserves something better. Maybe I just need to relax. I feel justified in my thoughts... but that is because I have no angel on my shoulder.

Above Law and Order

I have given this a lot of thought...

I feel like I have seen enough Law and Order SVU and Dexter to know how to get away with a crime. I feel like I have been making a list of people I'd like to cut a finger off of since I was twelve, and I am fairly certain I could get away with it. Unfortunately, I could never actually hurt anyone... not even a fly. I do agree with Dexter-style crime. I would be fine with it.

I have given this some thought...

It is sometimes considered polite to keep your thoughts to yourself. I have decided not to. 
I cannot go one single day without being completely saddened by the world around me. The way people act and the way people treat one another has gotten to me. I have given myself permission to create a blog so that I may write whatever the hell I want, and share my opinions, without offending anyone. So in that case... CAUTION to all of the overly-sensitive Dashboard fans. I cannot hold my tongue any longer.